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[10 Sep 2007|11:57pm] |
so erin posted on here for the first time in a long time and i also felt the livejournal urge today.
weird day?
is this a sign?
i just went to abra's wedding last weekend.
is that crazy or what!?
i remember lj posts about us being three best friends and being retarded goof balls.
and now she's friggin married.
i took my boyfriend to the wedding and it was wonderful.
now i'm waiting for his phone call where we will break up.
heartbroken once again.
this time, for the first time, no heartbreaking on this end.
really crappy feeling.
liking someone...
they don't think you are worth it.
wow.
so sad.
at least i'm at school with a zillion friends
and a new rejuvenated relationship with my jesus.
crap it feels great to be loved.
even if your boyfriend doesn't like you anymore.
your worth isn't defined by man.
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[15 Feb 2007|03:55pm] |
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what do you do when the one person you hurt is the only person you want to talk to
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[21 Dec 2006|02:08am] |
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so i'm back working at red robin for the holidays...
and i just realized... people i know, but don't know that well probably think that i have done nothing with my life since high school but work at red robin.
i was extremely saddened at this thought and a little humiliated to think that i am still entertaining thoughts of continuing at red robin.
ok yes... it's pays great and it's fun...
but what is it about that place that feels like a hole.
normally when i return from a break i'm greeted with smiles and i return them willingly... of course, let's not forget.. i am amanda
but this return from university back into the red robin cluster was different
i was again met with smiles...
but mine came back slowly...
it was so depressing seeing people that had been working there for years before i even started which was two years ago.
holy crap.
working at red robin for all you life?
really??
yea, it's a job that pays the bills.
but come ON.
what do you LOVE
what do you want to do with your life???
i would rather live in a ditch with only top ramen to eat for the rest of my life if i could say i was an amazing actress and got to do it forever
how can you live a life of monotonous work where you never get better and you possibly NEVER change someone's views of beauty, art, and life?
can you?
can you?
yes, you can. but will you?
will you subject yourself to work that is meaningless and feeds the gluttony that is america?
i know it's a little hypocritical right now because i am.
but that isn't my goal. that isn't my dream
for some people, it is all that they have and all they can think of. they are stuck.
please. please. please.
if it is the only thing i can give you as a friend from my university experience
please take this advice:
no matter the cost
no matter the gain
no matter what your family says
no matter what your brain tells you is possible
figure out what makes you breathe
what makes you tingle with anticipation
what makes you want to work so hard you couldn't fathom taking a break
figure out what you want to share with others
what makes you proud of who you are
what makes the world a more honest place
and do it.
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[25 Sep 2006|07:32pm] |
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so i live in my own house... with my friends...
i buy my own food.. pay my own rent... i actually just paid 45 dollars for a tank of gas.
i'm on my own.
holy crap.
life is way too expensive.
someone better buy me a dora the explorer umbrella for christmas.
but guess whatttt. i'm in charge of the comedy improv at my school with my friend holly.
we had the most sold out show in history of the school. people were sitting in the aisles and standing in the doorway and we still turned away about 100 people.
I love funnyyyyy friends.
i love theatre.
oh man. and i love justin.
p.s. i gave up anger this weekend against someone in my past... i've never felt closer to God. it was amazing.
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[13 Aug 2006|11:32am] |
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I'm so tired. hah. I wanted to complain, so what better place to come than livejournal.
i work as a camp couselor to 12 screaming 2nd graders and 4 silly 3rd graders from 8-4 every day and then go to red robin at 4:30. don't get done there until about 10 or so. then I go home and work on my summer class work or just fall in bed. I'm exhausted.
best part is. all of this isn't even going to get me enough money.
cool.
at least i'm going back to school soon where i will have two jobs and school and play rehearsal.
haha.
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[15 Jun 2006|03:27pm] |
it is official.
i think i have cheated the system.
and i don't care if you think i'm bad.
i know you are secretly jealous...
here's the situation...
i recieved an ipod for my birthday in 2004.
i compeletly scratched, played, and dropped the little one.
today i walked into costco.
i told them that my ipod only plays for 4 hours now, instead of the promised 12.
let me remind you, my ipod has a 1 year warranty.
the lady said, no problem, i'll give you a free refund.
much to my glee, the new ipod is ten dollars more that the old one.
i pretty much just updated my ipod from old two year ago version, to the movie ipod of today... for ten dollars.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i knew it.
you are jealous.
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[19 May 2006|11:15am] |
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man oh man....
i hate school so much.
i wish i could take a one day course...
or a three week course...
but 4 months on the same crappy subject with the same crappy teacher...
i just can't take it...
acting is fine, communications is fine...
but everything else?
i mean, don't the professors like what they teach?
can they not make their life passion at least a tad bit interesting to me?
i'm just complaining because it's not entirely all my fault for not wanting to do homework or study for tests when i can ace a paper that is worth thirty percent of my grade in one hour.
i'm a procrastinator and i don't give a crap... yes, i'm grinning right now.
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[11 Apr 2006|10:42pm] |
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i just watched the thanksgiving episode of the oc first season for the fiftieth time
what is it about seth cohen that makes my heart melt?
what is it about that man that makes every girl in my dorm positive that if he were in the room they would jump him?
is it just written witty perfection that no male can attain here at this university?
i mean, don't get me wrong. i've found excellence. i've found greatness.
but this ultimate capability of making a girl swoon with the power of a quick quip?
who is this MAN!?!?
seth cohen.
where are you?
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[10 Mar 2006|05:50pm] |
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it doesn't really matter who reads this. or if anyone does.
i feel that someday when i'm 80 and my grandaughter is on livejournal i'll be able to say hey, look at mine. by then it'll probably be holographic and you can talk to whoever you want or reinact your day for people to watch. but if she does one day read this old school journal entry.... i'll be content that I marked this moment in my life.
i've found it.
i've found my art.
my passion.
i've found love on stage.
i've found love in others, in listening, in understanding.
in presenting feelings for others to see.
in presenting an idea that others have a choice to accept.
i'm not a drama queen.
i'm a girl who is showing you some emotions.
it's ok if you don't understand, or you don't like it, or even if you plain just don't like me.
it's ok if you couldn't hear me one time. or if one time i didn't control your thoughts.
i don't want to make you feel a certain way about someone.
i've found out how to become any type of amanda at anytime.
i can reach inside myself and sympathize with anyone or anything.
i've learned to find the joy in life, and the sadness.
i want to show you what God has given us.
i want you to treasure what you have.
i want you to thank Him for what you have.
i will portray anyone to glorify the One.
i've found it.
i'm no longer a performer.
i'm not longer controlling what you are watching.
i'm an artist.
i'm an actress.
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[25 Jan 2006|06:26pm] |
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| You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!
Dance | | 92% | Theater | | 92% | Journalism | | 92% | Psychology | | 92% | Mathematics | | 83% | Philosophy | | 75% | Art | | 75% | Sociology | | 67% | Anthropology | | 58% | Linguistics | | 58% | English | | 58% | Engineering | | 50% | Biology | | 50% | Chemistry | | 42% | </td>
What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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[04 Jan 2006|04:56pm] |
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my heart doesn't fill up any more than when i see people praying.
i want that joy to be with me all the time.
i'm really scared of losing it.
i guess i'm really scared of a lot.
i need someone to say amanda just do it!
whatever you want! do it! stop being scared!
i need someone to point out all my flaws to my face,
and still be ok with being next to me.
i want to be open and vulnerable.
and to not be scared.
yes.
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| december 13th.... :) |
[13 Dec 2005|12:59pm] |
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i'm twenty now.
:)
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[29 Nov 2005|10:55am] |
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WE HAVE SNOW!!!!
2 INCHES OF PURE WHITE FANTASY AND DELIGHT!!!!
i love christmas.
i love december.
i love HEY SOOS!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[23 Nov 2005|07:03pm] |
hola... i'm coming home this weekend with some friends...
come on over if you want to play or just say hi.
miss you bremerton!!!
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| i think i'm done now |
[14 Nov 2005|12:01pm] |
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i'm pretty sure that i'm done with school now.
i would like to travel and work and love life and not do homework. i don't think my brain was made for homework. i like work work. you know?
would anyone like to either
a. travel abroad with me?
b. marry me?
c. give me a reason to finish university...
thank you
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[14 Oct 2005|11:52am] |
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Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDf)
Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper.
You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come.
Your exact opposite:
The Stiletto
Deliberate Brutal Sex Master
| Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns.
Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs.
BEWARE: The Hornivore
CONSIDER: The Gentleman, The Loverboy, The Boy Next Door |
Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: poofpandy |
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| muahahaha... you tricksters... |
[11 Oct 2005|03:34pm] |
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| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
| punkdramamama goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a mean girl. |
| falsepretense gives you 4 tan cinnamon-flavoured nuggets. |
| icescream4manda tricks you! You get a block of wood. |
| iheartgsus gives you 1 mottled green lime-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. |
| kisstheirishgal gives you 16 milky white watermelon-flavoured pieces of taffy. |
| laxchick0449 gives you 12 green coffee-flavoured nuggets. |
| megustachloe tricks you! You get a clothespin. |
| muphy501 gives you 13 mottled green coconut-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. |
| roses_r_pink gives you 16 pink passionfruit-flavoured jawbreakers. |
| secretagtbarbie tricks you! You get a block of wood. |
| thewisefool gives you 2 red-orange orange-flavoured pieces of chewing gum. |
| punkdramamama ends up with 64 pieces of candy, a block of wood, a clothespin, and a block of wood. |
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Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.
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oh yea...
here are some are a few random university fun pitchas...
oh yea... i really don't like boys anymore.
haha.
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[21 Sep 2005|12:23pm] |
This is the most conceited quiz i've ever taken...
i really wish that this answer was right though... muahaha...
p.s. i love university.
You should be very proud of yourelf! You got Haily,
the wisest chick on the block. If people need
help with something, they will always seek
you're advise, smartypants. You're not this
smart and wise because you're are a nerd,
though. For you it comes nautally. So be proud!
People look up to you like you're their queen.
You also have a great sense of humor. And you
probably could be! You have a gift of getting
your way. People can just not say no to you,
you megesty! No offence, but sometimes you can
be a bit of a teacher's pet, but a good not
annoying one! Good always comes from your
sucking up and you always do it for the good of
man kind. It gets you places. You have got some
connections in your life, GOOD connections.
Connections from the TOP. Your going places,
magesty. Your friends are "abundent"
so keep smiling, thay all love yah! And when it
comes to boys you'd rather just stay friends,
even though you got plenty of those and think
boys are so hott. They love you, but you're not
really interested. You should run President,
you'd probably win.
what type of girl are you? (anime picks!)
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